My life is changing, and it's changing BIG. I'm about to start college, live without my family, I have no idea what's happening with a relationship I'm currently out of, and I can't listen to God because of my own desires and wills for my life.
If God has my best interests (which he does), and God rules the universe (which he does), how does Satan continually win me over?
Because, I'm not making God the LORD OF MY LIFE right now, he's just a part of it. At Summit, I heard from God so much and I was listening, then I was doing. Reality hit me hard. I broke up with my boyfriend because I thought that that would make me more dependent of God. Secretly, I've been putting some faith into Jake that he would come rescue me of what might have been a bad decision being knight of shining armor. Still hasn't happened. Nor has my capacity to love my Father grown.
I changed the name of my blog because I want a whole new feel to it. This is gonna be a journey. A walk. Not alone, but with my perfect heavenly Father. My sweet sweet Abba above. Abba is referred to when a child says, "abba, father!" They refer to their father not only as father but MY father. There isn't a specific translation, but it brings on a level of intimacy. I want the King of Kings to me mine, and I want a personal walk with Him with more intimacy to form a deeper relationship.
My whole life is changing, and I want to listen to Him and DO what He commands. I hope to post in this more.
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