Love: Separated

"And I am convinced that nothing can separate us from God's love. Death can't and life can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow...no not even the very powers of hell can keep God's love away." -Romans 8:3

Just a verse I sent to my friends this morning, you never know when an encouraging word can change an entire day. I found it in a journal I kept last year. I've been thinking about it, and I sent it to my friends to just be encouraging, but what does it mean to me? It's such such a powerful verse. Who am I to send it to my friends when I don't truly understand it? God's love is so unconditional and great that every word in the languages undermine it.

God gave us love, and his love and our love is so different. If I start comparing my love and His love, I'm bringing His love to such a smaller scale and making it human and bringing it into sin. The simple word that is love is so overused and the meaning has changed so much over the years and throughout different societies. I love Mexican food, I love movies, I love boots and sweaters, and I love God. Can all that really mean the same thing? No, I'm changing the meaning because my love for boutiques can't be the same as my love for Holy Dad! If don't even understand the word love that I use, how can I understand His?

Last week, my small group and I determined that the love he has for us is discipline, comfort, wisdom, and encouragement all at the same time. But the purpose of love is not just for us to enjoy and keep to ourselves, but he loves us so that we can shine his light and glory to all that we encounter. My love definitely does not have the same effect on people.

Everything and person that I love in this life WILL let me down, and I will let everyone down that I love. But the God I serve and have a relationship with will never let me down. He is always there for me, he knows and understands everything I'm going through, and he knows every step that I have taken, am taking, and will take. When he loves, its the REAL deal. All inclusive with no loopholes or surprises.

Ultimately that makes me think, if He comes with the whole package, why do I still not fully trust in Him and give everything I have to Him? I'm beginning to think that life would be a whole lot different if all the money I made at work, all the knowledge I learned at school, and all the time I've been blessed with that is my life went to my Father. But to get to that level, there is a lot of trust. Trust that I don't have. Trust that has been long lost through all sorts of people. If he is always for me and with me, why is it so hard to submit everything? That's like holding on to a melting ice cream cone when you are offered and entire lifetime supply of cold refreshing ice cream that never melts. But you don't get to pick the flavor. I'm just too scared of what I don't know. But what I do know has broken me so many times, I think its about time for me to accept that I have NOTHING to lose.

Dear Dad, I pray to you in hopes that I will find the strength to take up my cross and give you every thought, worries, wishes, breaths, actions, and step. I know you have an amazing plan, and what you have for me is so much greater and better than anything I can decide on for myself. I know you'll never melt on me, and I want to run to you when I have the slightest doubt or uncomfort in my life. I pray that you will give me the patience and peace to just stop breathe pray and listen to you throughout my days because you know what is best! Inspire me to do amazing things that youve called me to do with your love. I pray for ALL those who might not ever receive true love through relationships in this life that they might enjoy the love that you give them and they feel your huge huge heart and you fill theirs with joy to share. You are all that we will ever need! In Lords name I pray, Amen.